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screw the title

i’ve been pausing to write for quite some time. and i think just now i realize why.


truthfully, so many times i went home from the clinic i worked for the past 10 months with thoughts and ideas and sentences and when it was the time i sat and opened my laptop…


i was hella lazy to type them.


i made excuses, like, “i’m exhausted“; or “maybe tomorrow“; or “i still need time to gather some more stories“; or the worst of all “what should be the title?”


and tonight. i’m breaking free. i couldn’t care less about the fricking title.


then an epiphany hit me.


not knowing the title, is actually like us living this life.


us here goes to the fresh graduates.

us here goes to the fellow 20s.

us here goes to you who are still figuring out what to do with your life.


the question of the future might come a little late to my class and me. FYI, i went to Dentistry in Universitas Gadjah Mada, Yogyakarta, Indonesia. the path i took was all normal. i didn’t accelerate during Junior or High School. so, that made me 18 year-old when i started Dentistry in 2009. the target the faculty gave to us was to graduate in THREE AND HALF years with FOUR years curriculum. i managed to graduate in THREE years  AND TEN months.


when friends in other faculties were already panicking about jobs – or probably even getting married, at that time, my friends and i basically were focusing on the extra TWO years as co-Assistant  in order to acquire the title drg or dokter gigi or dentist.


all in all, it’s nearly SIX YEARS, our lives had been neatly scheduled. when the sixth year was almost over, we just had that panic attack.




well. i know that i had to get a job. the thing was, i had too many questions that Google couldn’t give me answers.


what kind of job?

where can i get the job?

so that means i don’t get to hang out with my friends again?

what if i did wrong?

what if i didn’t get the diagnosis right?

what if i didn’t know what to do with the patient?

what if i didn’t know how to write the meds prescription?

what if i couldn’t make enough money?

what if

what if

what if


those ‘what ifs’ are thoughts when i was thinking about a title of a post. those ‘what ifs’ are the ones that holding me back from writing. those ‘what ifs’ are undoubtedly necessary to be considered, but to make a great leap, we all need small step first.


what i’m saying is:


it’s always good to have big plans, but don’t let it confine you. don’t let it define you; instead, YOU are the one who is the rightful person to define the title.


improvisation and plot twist are two elements we often see in good shows, moreover the live ones. and guess what? our lives are not recorded shows, so naturally, yeah. at some points we are required to improvise; and at some points there will be plot twist(s). we wouldn’t be able to do so if we don’t keep moving on.


it is hella scary, the whole concept of graduating, finding that one perfect job, moving out, and so on. at least, we still have GoogleMaps if we’re lost in our new place. i can’t imagine what would have happened to Neil Armstrong if he wasn’t that brave discovering the Moon then suddenly he got lost…


well, that’s a motivation for all of us. we are not totally lost, LOL.


in short, i’m not trying to look wiser or anything as if i’ve figured out my life, but for my dear fellows, i really think that you shouldn’t waste everything that’s already in front of you. every small thing is something you can use to compose your own definition to life.

if what you’ve already get is the only thing you have, do your best anyway, while also pursuing what you really want. you have to believe that the Universe will align and you will get what you’ve been dreaming.


anyways. i’m in different place now. fingers crossed, i’m aiming for another title in the next TWO and HALF years to continue my passion as a lecturer. i’m currently enrolling the Oral Medicine Specialty in Universitas Airlangga, Surabaya, which has been my lifelong dream. and i live alone in an 11th-floor studio. and i can not wait to explore ALL of the malls in Surabaya.


let’s start the improv 😉




PS. these people are my classmates. small number, but i hope we can support each other together till the end 🙂


i know you miss me #wink #lol

hahahaha just kidding. i don’t even know how many of you that actually continuously read my post here in this blog. however, i realize that it’s been wa~~~y too long since the last time i wrote any post. writer’s block? hmm more like writer’s laziness lol.


if you ask what i’ve been up to, i’m going to answer with:

preparing the next step of my life.


for a couple of months ago, i’ve been completing the required documents for the study i’m going to enroll. it’s my dream to be able to continue in oral medicine specialty, although for a large number of people, my dream is such a big question of WHY.


i gotta admit that oral medicine isn’t the easiest branch of dentistry. there are  a lot of memorizing, and much more of understanding. in some way when performing this discipline, we act more like a detective than like a dentist itself. and i guess it’s one of the reasons why i’m attracted to oral medicine. the quest of diagnosing the underlying disease, the i-want-to-know-more-and-more attitude, and the realization that there are indefinite diseases out there, all make me feel challenged. i’m hungry to know more.


it seems too ambitious, but i feel like i have to put a relatively high target. i don’t know if you have the same experience or not, but even Albert Einstein stated:

The more I learn, the more I realize how much I don’t know.


and right now, i still don’t know a lot of things. that only means one thing: i must learn more.


there’s this joke between my friends and me. if you can not be skinny, make other people fatter.


first time i heard this joke, i was mindblown.


i honestly never thought of that before. it’s similar like if you want to be tall, you can exercise to make yourself tall or wear 10-inch heels; or you hang around people shorter than you.




all of this time, i only learn one way to achieve something. if you want it, go get it. not the other way around.


however, by that joke earlier, i became aware of how much people actually do the other way around instead. there are some who choose to make others look worse than they are just to be considered (more) superior.


i’m so sorry in advance, but in my humblest opinion, you won’t go anywhere with that tactic. so what if your friends are fatter than you, shorter than you, worse than you? it just means that you are just as fat, short, and bad, right?


so in conclusion, as much as it is not wrong, i can not agree with it, let it forever be just a joke.


oh, one more thing. i also have been so interested in learning about investments. a senior lend me her 3 books about personal finance and i’m eager to know deeper about it. for a simple reason: i love money and i’d like to see my money grow. muahahahaha


i’m still figuring out about the products, though. since i don’t have that much income, i’m still thinking this over and over again. but this doesn’t stop me from learning!!!


so, what have you guys been up to? 😉



open your mouth

not many people realize this, but i consider being a dentist is really an ‘honor’. in various interpretations.


before going any further, go check your own mouth and teeth. are they good? are there any cavities? are there any calculus?


not the mathematics calculus. the dental calculus, which is a hardened plaque and food debris due to imprecision teeth cleansing.


for those who really don’t brush their teeth well, their calculus tend to build up ridiculously thick. my friends and i used to call it “Chinese Great Wall” or “wasp nest” just because the calculus is altering teeth original shape. tooth is sexy, it has curve and smooth, you know. it’s not bulging and rough or flat and plain and connected. no. a disgusting heavy calculus can wrap around a tooth as if it’s being in a yellowish shell and it’s also able to connect one tooth with another. i think i made my point how gross it is, yes?


the thing is, some people who realize how unattractive their mouth is, most likely are ashamed to get them fixed because they already knew that what they have beyond their lipglossed lips are chaos.


this brings back to my very first statement: “being a dentist is really an ‘honor'”.


i appreciate those patients with crowded teeth, scary cavities, and bleeding gum who come voluntarily to the dental clinic and proceed on their own through the door and sit on the dental chair calmly. and when they do as i say “open your mouth, please”, i know i’ve got their trust.


see this bond is often stronger than the one with general physicians. most of the times, general physicians don’t have to physically touch the patients. but dentists, they not only touch, but also do whatever like pull out your cheek and lips, drill a hole to your tooth, apply thingamajiggy in blue color, sometimes hold your head still while pulling your rotten tooth out…


it’s that intimate that almost like a date that directly jump to first base without holding hand before. although in reality i don’t think it’s possible because to enter first base, you need to feel the physical connection first.


so, that’s the reason why i think it’s an honor, personally, when a patient shows up for numerous time to do another treatment with me. like, ‘thank you, Ma’am, for trusting me to fill your cavity and now you let me crush all of your calculus”.


yup. it’s another honor to wrestle with your oral muck cause nobody else would want to touch your saliva mixed with blood and food impaction.